I thought I’d write a little post about me, so you have an idea of what the person your reblogging stuff from is like. And because I’m sick of keeping all my feelings in.
I’ve been suffering from depression on and off for five years now. They’ll be periods when Im am completely fine and content and others where it’s hard to contemplate staying on this planet. At the moment I’m going through a particularly tough phase and have been having suicidal and self harm thoughts.
The cause of this bad phase is mainly loneliness. One of my best friends doesn’t seem to be bothered anymore and I don’t see others as much as I’d want to as we’re all very busy with our own things. I also feel like no one wants my company. My family don’t seem particularly interested and see depression as a hormonal thing: they don’t realise how hard it is for me to exist right now. Relationship wise there is no one and all I seem to attract is boys who want to use me and walk all over me. I feel like no ones there and this is very hard to handle.
My life is pretty much work work work and there doesn’t seem to be much to enjoy for me right now. The good stuff seems to be reserved for everyone else.
So there I’ve said it. I’m not expecting reblogging or comments or anything. I just needed it out of my system.
I empathise with all sufferers of this disease. It’s truly horrible.